I don't really know what to blog about.
I'ts just that I need to do something to stop worrying like paranoid .
Whenever I look back to my childhood days,
there are a lot of memories.
Some are good, some are not so good.
Before, I've been trying to erase those bad memories and keep only the good ones.
But recently, I realized that you can not erase memories.
Not unless you've had amnesia or mental something.
But I don't have. And I don't wish to have neither. n,n
No, you can't erase them,
But you can change the way you feel about them.
you've probably heard the quote,
"Trials can make you BITTER or BETTER."
Well, not only trials..
But everything that happens in your life.
It's all about perspective and attitude, as John Maxwell said.
I'm just trying to remind myself how I used to be when I was a child
And how had God changed me gradually as I'm growing up.
Whenever I try to look back to what I am before to what I am now,
I can see two different people. (In terms of maturity level)
But I won't be here.. I won't definitely survive,
If it isn't for God.
Many times, I've committed sins.
A lot of times, I've uttered words I didn't mean to.
I've been always saying,
"Take my Life, I wanna end it".
Yet wondering why I'm still alive.
And later on.. I can feel something.
Something I can't really explain, but I know that it's from God.
He keeps on reminding me this verse,
"For I have not given you a spirit of fear"
How foolish of me to easily give up and lose hope!
Not realizing how these problems have made me grow and learn.
When I was a child I easily cry when someone gets my candy because I feel like it's already the end of the world.
I just laugh whenever I remember that experience.
pretty little spoiled brat.
Recently, I've cried over something I thought I have.
I'm excited for the day when I'll laugh about it.
I can't wait for the new challenges to unfold..
where I can see a bigger, better, stronger, braver me.
What about you?
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